{"product_id":"9781914391446","title":"I Love You So Much It's Killing Us Both by Mariah Stovall","description":"Meet Khaki Oliver, a woman perennially trying to disappear: into a codependent friendship; an ill-advised boyfriend; the punk scene; or simply, the ether. These days, it's a meaningless job and an empty apartment.?Then, after a decade of estrangement, she receives a letter from her former best friend - Fiona's throwing a party for her newly adopted daughter and wants Khaki to join the celebration.?Khaki is equal parts terrified and tempted to reconnect. Their platonic love was confusing, all-consuming, and encouraged their worst impulses. While stalling her RSVP, Khaki starts crafting the perfect mixtape-revisiting memories of formative shows, failed romances, and the ups and downs of desire and denial-while weighing the risks and rewards of saying yes to Fiona again.?One song at a time, from 1980s hardcore to 2010s emo, the shared and separate contours of each woman's mind come into focus. Will listening to the same old songs on repeat doom Khaki to a lonely life of arrested development? Or will hindsight help her regain her sense of self and pave a healthy path for the future?Set in the suburbs of Los Angeles and New York City I Love You So Much It's Killing Us Both is a Black woman's coming-of-age story, chronicling a life-changing friendship, the interplay between music fandom and identity, and the slipperiness of sanity.\u003cbr\u003eBinding: Paperback \/ softback","brand":"Gardners","offers":[{"title":"Default Title","offer_id":56309394211189,"sku":"9781914391446","price":11.99,"currency_code":"GBP","in_stock":true}],"thumbnail_url":"\/\/cdn.shopify.com\/s\/files\/1\/0612\/7193\/3106\/files\/9781914391446.jpg?v=1762811637","url":"https:\/\/backstory.london\/products\/9781914391446","provider":"Backstory","version":"1.0","type":"link"}