{"product_id":"9781913513580","title":"i will pay to make it bigger by Ahren Warner","description":"You wake up in the footwell of a mid-sized hatchback somewhere on a highway in outer Bangkok. You compile neurotic spreadsheets of the best `party destinations' in Europe, whilst your work emails pile up without ever being read. You quit your job. You launch a banal start-up. You grieve for a past relationship. You stare endlessly at the waves coming in from a beach in Koh Pha Ngan. You vape intensely. You spend money on feelings, on the performance of your own persona, whilst you observe yourself with a detached sense of horror.   i will pay to make it bigger is a novella, by poet and artist Ahren Warner, in which `you' are the main character. Through text and image - autofiction, docufiction, and just plain fiction - you work your way through a tangle of preoccupations: from what it means to buy enjoyment, to the fragile construction of your own self as a cultural product.   i will pay to make it bigger is also a photobook, a collection of images produced whilst living in Thai `party hostels'. Although these photographs might seem to exist as the documentation of intimate or ecstatic moments, they are in fact quite painstakingly, and artificially, constructed: composited and manipulated from multiple still frames of film footage to produce images that advertise the calculated artifice of their own hedonism, emotion and seemingly raw experience.\u003cbr\u003eBinding: Paperback \/ softback","brand":"Gardners","offers":[{"title":"Default Title","offer_id":44583066370226,"sku":"9781913513580","price":20.0,"currency_code":"GBP","in_stock":true}],"thumbnail_url":"\/\/cdn.shopify.com\/s\/files\/1\/0612\/7193\/3106\/files\/9781913513580.jpg?v=1720957172","url":"https:\/\/backstory.london\/products\/9781913513580","provider":"Backstory","version":"1.0","type":"link"}