{"title":"Metatron Press","description":null,"products":[{"product_id":"9781988355245","title":"New Infinity","description":"New Infinity is an experimental novella that follows a woman as she lives and dreams her way through the philosophical implications of autoimmune disease.  Met by a labyrinth of closing doors, she searches for meaning and connection among fragmented realities and failed relationships, finding infinitude in the healing process of bibliomancy. Bára Hladík’s New Infinity is a glittering cross-genre debut.  Weaving surrealist stories with meditative poetics, Hladík invites you into a dream world of degenerative illness, left disordered by the failures of ableism, medical professionals, and late-stage capitalism.  Here, everything runs on sick time.  Where physical health and financial resources grow scarce, the restorative possibilities of queer love, divination, and self-reclamation grant a defiant, yet often tenuous, abundance.  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Their second collection of poetry, The Good Arabs (Metonymy Press), won the 2022 Grand Prix du Livre de Montréal. Praise“For me, the power of knot  body stems from its courage and unique voice in writing the ache, the ache of chronic pain, the ache of faulty diagnoses and bodily misreadings, and, equally, the ache for honest answers on how to love each other in all our dignity.  Eli Tareq El Bechelany-Lynch is an artist and philosopher of talent, generosity, and heart. ”– David Chariandy, author of Brother (Penguin Random House)“In this moment, when trans, racialized and disabled bodies are met with violent and polarizing commentary within the public sphere, Eli Tareq El Bechelany-Lynch offers us the uninterrupted intimacy of knot body.  As self-communional as Kiese Laymon’s Heavy and Terese Marie Mailhot’s Heart Berries, they amplify and queer the epistolary memoir genre.  Each letter is emotionally and thematically complete and, too, each letter decidedly speaks to the next.  Readers may ruminate on the sharp and sensual inquiry offered by each individual letter, or read cover-to-cover and be present to the gorgeously-engaged, call-and-response quality of knot body as a whole. ”– Amber Dawn, author of My Art is Killing Me (Arsenal Pulp Press) “knot  body is such a generous tapestry of tenderness—a collection that brilliantly utilizes the direct address in a way that is not universal, but still beautifully communal.  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The individual pieces build on each other to reveal the fractured self beneath and the ways the Western world fractures people who ‘look like Mulan. ’ A fierce new literary voice.  Don’t miss this one. ”– Matthew Salesses, author of The Hundred-Year Flood“At first glance, it might not seem as if How Do I Look? is about survival.  But in each of these brief vignettes, Sennah Yee is tested over \u0026amp; over again by white supremacy, racism, fetishization, heteronormativity \u0026amp; all the other worst parts of Western culture that constantly deluge the screens \u0026amp; scenes of our upbringing.  And yet, Sennah Yee survives every microaggression.  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